Sad

Feeling sad today. I forgot to grab my food this morning on the way out the door which lead to a long spiral of horrible eating. I am getting back on that wagon, but was just so disappointed with how the day went. Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to start over. I plan on taking that opportunity and running with it. Hopefully I will remember my meals tomorrow.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the day. I have my list, I know what I need to do and I am going for it. I am just going to eat as little processed foods as possible and avoid sugars and white flour and bad carbs. I am beyond ready. Weigh in on Monday. I am afraid of the damage, but I know it is fixable.

Wake Up Call

It's settled. The family and I have to start eating healthier. My son, who is 11, came into the living room without his shirt on. He is big, he is unhealthy and I have done this to him. I have failed him. Again. I know I have posted on this subject before, and I guess I just let us all slip back into our unhealthy habits to the detriment of all of our healths. A change is coming. I need to throw out the unhealthy foods in the house and start fresh. A new beginning for all of us.

2 Years

Wow! It has nearly been 2 years since I last posted in here. A lot has happened and a lot of weight has been gained. I am bigger than I have ever been. I had to buy new clothes and have now graduated from Women's clothing to Plus Size. I am rather embarrassed because I cannot seem to stick to any healthy eating plan. I do great for a couple of months and then fall off the wagon. I know the secret to weight loss is to eat healthy and exercise, sounds easy enough, but for some reason I can't stick with it. I wish there were an easy button and that I could find the magical potion that turns me back into a size 8. I know it doesn't exist, but a little wishful thinking never hurt anything right?

I suppose I came back here to start over, to start fresh. I did so well when I was losing for Chad and David's wedding. I would love to be back there, heck, I think I would be happy to be at my beginning weight when I started back then! There goes the wishful thinking again.

Time for me to sign off here and come up with a plan. I need to lose 50 lbs. It is going to be a long slow process, so I need to think about what I need to do to get there and set some goals for myself. Next time I post here, I hope to have a game plan in mind.

Until next time

Long Time

It's been a long time since I have posted here. I lost just enough weight before the wedding to get into my bridesmaids dress. Then I started eating again and haven't stopped. My clothes barely fit and I have been pretty down about it, but just not motivated enough to do anything about it. I may start again soon. I have to find a plan that fits my lifestyle and not just a temporary, short-term plan. South Beach works really well for me, I just wish that I could stay long term on the plan. Once I get to the point that I can reintroduce carbs, I go crazy on them and fall off the wagon every time.

I have been reading up on the Paleo diet, but that looks like it involves a lot of creativity and cooking, which I don't have a lot of time for with football season here. We have practice 3-4 nights a week from 6 - 8 and games on Saturdays. We live off of convenience food during this time of year.

I may just have to wait it out until the season is over before I make a commitment to myself. I know I am setting myself up for failure if I try it now.

Did It!

I managed to get down to my lowest weight in just 5 days. I super pumped by this. However, I do think I had a little help from a certain antibiotic that I was given for strep throat. The effect it had on my stomach with no doubt contribute to a loss in weight. I am still a little surprised by the loss as I really haven't exercised since Tuesday. I started feeling crappy on Wednesday and while I feel much better today, it is the first time that I have felt slightly human since Tuesday night.

Today should be a good day exercise wise. The bestie and I are going to finish the choreography for a dance that we will be doing at the wedding in May. According to her calorie burner, 2 hours of the dance should burn approximately 900 and something calories. Needless to say, if I don't manage to over do it today, I should be down even more tomorrow.

I have 7 weeks left until the wedding and 11 more lbs to go. I am very excited to be able to show off the newer leaner me in my beautiful brides maid gown.

New Beginnings

I went off my diet for a while. I don't know what happened, I just lost control. I am a huge comfort eater, not that I had anything bad going on, but food just gives me the warm fuzzies and it is something that I will always struggle with. I decided that today would be a new day and a new beginning. Since my house has been bombarded by not so good stuff, I am making due with what is on hand at the moment and just watching my calorie intake. I also did 7 miles on the recumbent bike at the gym at work during my lunch break. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow as well. I have 9 weeks until the wedding. I want to get down 15 lbs by then. I know those are some big numbers, but that would put me at 152 for the wedding and at a decent size. I just have to focus and put my mind to it.