Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Fail

I have done really bad with my eating this last week or so. I can't seem to get my head in the game. I have not only been eating crap, I have been eating A LOT of crap. I have gained back a few pounds. I wake up each morning with good intentions, but by mid morning I manage to screw up and just keep going down hill from there. I have got to get it together. I have less than 2 months to squeeze my fat ass into a dress that I ordered one size too small. I just can't seem to find the kick in the ass that I need to get back on track.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Back Down

After the trouble I had this past week staying on plan, I have managed to get back down to my lowest weight. The weekends are usually harder for me to stay on plan because that is when we usually go out and do stuff. Add Valentine's Day weekend and my nephews birthday party to the mix and I know I am going to have a good struggle this weekend. I do plan on making some chocolate cupcakes with Vanilla icing this weekend. It is Valentine's day after all. I have already given myself permission to have one, I am just going to have to watch what I eat closely the rest of the day.

Tomorrow I plan on going up to the mountain and hiking with the family and my bestie. I am sure we are going to do the red trail, which is about a 2 mile hike. It is supposed to be beautiful and somewhat warm tomorrow - I love hiking when the weather is so nice.

Despite my set backs, I still have my head in the game. I have a goal in mind and I am going to work my ass off to get there. I know I can do it and won't stop until I make it.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Not Much

Not to much to report, but I don't want to get out of the habit of not blogging about everything.

I had a pretty bad week food wise. I haven't really been staying on plan like I should and I have seen a little uptick on the scale. I start out the day with good intentions, but I keep getting side tracked. Just as I was wondering what was wrong with me, I got my answer. Time of the month is here (sorry fellas that read this). I knew something has been going on because I haven't had this much of a struggle staying on plan since I started. Hopefully the exercise that I have been doing will help off set this set back that I am going through. I am up to 2.08 miles on the treadmill, slowly creeping my way up to 3.

Now that I know what my problem is this week, I should be able to get back on track. I am not going to let something like this sabotage all my hard work. I just have to keep on going on not look back.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Motivation

Yesterday the Girl Scout cookies that I ordered came in. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to not open the pack, I wanted to just not NEED those cookies. But that didn't happen. Instead I opened the box and ate nearly one whole sleeve of those cookies. Those wonderful peanut buttery Do-Si-Do cookies. Of course, I immediately regretted my actions. Instead of saying "Forget it! I screwed up!" I immediately jumped back on the wagon and kept going like it never happened.

This past weekend some of my favorite people in the whole wide world came into town to go bridesmaid dress shopping. We had a blast at the bridal store and walked out with our dresses ordered. Our dresses are absolutely fabulous, I cannot wait until they come in. I ordered mine one size smaller than I fit in now to keep myself motivated to stay on track. Every time I want something bad to eat, I tell myself to think of that dress and how awesome it is going to look when I put it on. I want to look good not only to be proud of myself, but I want to make David and Chad proud on their wedding day as well.

Also, to help keep things going and hopefully make these moments weakness have less of an impact, I have started using my treadmill. I went 1.5 miles yesterday and 2 miles today. I am just doing a run/walk for 30 minutes, but eventually want to work myself up to a 30 minute straight run. This is my favorite form of exercise and the easiest thing for me to do at home. Who knows, maybe I will work myself into doing a 5K or more. Right now my goal is to get in shape anything else that comes of it is just a bonus.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Holy Weight Loss Batman!

Today is an exciting day for me. My very good friends Chad, David and Todd have come in from Georgia to pick out bridesmaids dresses for my bestie and me. We are going to be the best girls in Chad and David's wedding in May.

My mom called me bright and early this morning and she was asking about my weight loss. I got on the scale to see what was going on and saw another 2 pounds lost! That is a total of 15 pounds. I am so excited right now! This is probably the best weight loss result I have had on any diet that I have ever attempted. I don't know what is so different this time. If it is the motivation or if I am finally just doing it right, it doesn't really matter though, just as long as it works.

I have a lot of support and encouragement among my family and friends. People are constantly keeping me in check and making sure that I am doing the right things. It makes the hard times better because I know so many people are cheering for me. All my friends on facebook have been amazing as well. The encouraging words that come when I post updates keep me going, even when I don't feel like staying on plan - I think about all the encouraging words from everyone and it keeps me in check.

I have only 9 more pounds to get to my first big goal of 154. That will put me withing a healthy weight range and BMI. I have come so far in a short amount of time, yet I have so much further to go. But I can do it and I will do it. I have the best support system that anyone can ask for and I really think that is the difference this time.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Lucky 13

I got on the scale this morning and was concerned because I was sure that there would be a lot of damage from last night. I had an emotional draining day that ended with the boy grounded and me with a headache from hell. When the husband called to tell me he was on his way home from work, I asked him to pick up some Taco Bell. I ate it all very happily finishing up 2 soft taco supremes and a nacho supreme. At that point I didn't care about carbs or calories or fat or sodium. All I wanted was the greasy, cheesy goodness to take away the stress from the day. Of course, after I had inhaled all my food, I immediately felt remorse. There was nothing that I could do at that point, except jump back on the wagon and keep going. So, back to this morning. I got on the scale expecting to see some numbers that I didn't want to and instead was welcomed by a 1 pound weight loss. Making sure that I wasn't seeing things, or not standing on the scale right, I got back off and on and sure enough one pound gone. I have lost a total of 13 pounds so far. I am so happy that my poor choices last night didn't come back to haunt me. I am not going to take that for granted though and just keep eating crap (that's what got me here in the first place). I am going to take it for what it is, a TEMPORARY lapse in judgement and move forward. I still have 11 more pounds to lose to make my first big goal and I don't want anything else slowing me down.